Ignorance

When you make a horrible mistake, and have no way of taking it back, it forever scars you and haunts your mind. The aftermath of it all, the sheer ineptitude and shame. It's tormented me to heights I've created for myself, regardless of its degree. It's been hard to forget that one little thing, mainly because the animosity is still there. My damnation he would dance about with glee, more to the point of melodrama and probably one he will never let go.

I'm not sure I can face it, let alone let go of it. It runs through me day and night until everything is forgiven. It toys with me, destroys my psyche and ultimately isolates me from time to time to a split-second reverie of remorse and spite. The makings of a good read is my misery. It's fine poetry, ultimate tragedy indeed. Regardless, I must forge on and prove I am worthy of vindication. For now, I, wracked with guilt, am sorry I was foolhardy, and, pray tell, this is not over. You will have my forgiveness but know that I am not about to succumb to your constraints. I will rise above and break your rules yet again..when time will allow me and the healing has come to fruition. Yes, my negligence is one you will never restrain.

This is not over.

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1. What do you add to your coffee?

-I don't drink coffee

2. What are you reading now?

-Nothing in particular

3. Do you own a gun?

-No

4. Are you registered to vote?

-Yes

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?

-Yeah

6. What do you think of hot dogs?

-Okay

7. Favorite Christmas Song?

-'Deck The Halls' mainly coz I can make it sound violent

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?

-O.J.

9. Can you do push ups?

-Yes

10. What was the name of your first boyfriend/girlfriend?

-I don't wanna think about it

11. What’s your favorite piece of jewelery?

-Blood Diamonds

12. Favorite hobby?

-Video Games

13. Do you work with people who idolize you?

-Yeah

14. Do you have ADD?

-Pretty much

15. What’s one trait that you hate about yourself?

-A lot

16. What’s your Middle name?

-Fuck am I saying anything

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.

-I wonder if a fall from this height is enough to kill me. Will tomorrow screw me again? I wish I had soda.

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday.

-Food

19. Name 3 beverages you regularly drink.

-O.J., Coke, and Iced Tea

20. Current worry right now?

-A lot of shit

21. What side do you dress to?

-Left

22. Favorite place to be?

-Isolated

23. How did you bring in the New Year?

-Meh, it was crap

24. Where would you like to go?

-Whatever

25. Name three people who will complete this.

-Three people as bored as I am

26. Whose answers do you want to read the most?

-Would it matter?

27. What color shirt are you wearing?

-Dark

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?

-I really don't care

29. Can you whistle?

-No...

30. Favorite colors(s)?

Black, Blue, and Vermilion

31. Could you be a pirate?

-Argh

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?

-Whatever's on

33. Favorite girls name?

-I...want to shut up...

34. Favorite boy’s name?

-Killzone

35. What’s in your pocket right now?

-Microscopic bacteria

36. Last thing that made you laugh?

-Sheer irony

37. Best bed sheets as a child?

-I don't know

38. Worst injury you’ve ever had?

-Chipped bone

39. Do you love where you live?

-Guess so

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?

-Two

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41. Who is your loudest friend?

-My thoughts

42. How many dogs do you have?

-Eleven

43. Does anyone have a crush on you?

-I think so...

44. What are the most fun things you ever did?

-Rolled over and dropped dead...

45. What are your favorite books?

-Lazy to name

46. What is your favorite candy?

-Anything sweet

47. Favorite Team?

-San Antonio Spurs

48. What songs do you want played at your funeral?

-It Ends Tonight

49. What were you doing at 12 AM?

-Rolling in bed

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?

-Great, a new day [sarcasm]